Before I start I want to apologise for any offense caused. This is just how I'm feeling about myself and my situation and I hold no judgement towards anybody else in similar circumstances.
I started a new job a few months ago. It's working in the kitchens of a local senior school so I've only just gone back after 6 weeks off. I was so chuffed to get this job being that it's term time and works so well around my children etc etc. Happy to be back and in a good active routine I was in such a good mood today. Then I took a walk through the school and passed a teacher who I instantly recognised as someone I went to school with. I suddenly felt very embarrassed, wearing the dinner lady uniform and hat that I felt a little silly in but accepted after a few days in to my new job. I felt like a loser tbh. She was always one of the quiet clever ones so not surprised she's done so well for herself. But I so wanted to shout that I was doing ok, I did have a good job.. until I had children and was subject to the usual sexism in the banking industry and all opportunities where suddenly non existent for part time mum's. I then met my husband who was quite successful so was persuaded to stay at home and there I did for 7 years being mum to our 3 children. We then split up and here I am unskilled working as a dinner lady for min wage and relying on uni credit to top me up. I feel like an absolute failure and so down about it now.
I don't know what I'm looking for in terms of responses, maybe just some like minded people who know how I feel? Tia xx