This might seem nothing compared to what other people are going through but to me it completely ruins my life. I have severe anxiety and emetophobia to the point where I can’t leave the house unless I absolutely have to (emergency appointments and things like that and always with someone). I have no quality of life and can’t ever imagine being able to have a normal one again like before all this started.
I’ve suddenly come over feeling very sick and with a bit of pain and needing to go to the toilet - my sibling had a sickness bug whilst my daughter was there but because she hasn’t had no symptoms I thought I would be fine.
I’m currently sat on the loo with a bucket crying my eyes out on the verge of a panic attack because I can’t imagine anything actually worse than being sick right now - to me it literally feels like the end of the world. I’ve taken an anti-emetic (Ondansetron) but don’t know whether I’ve taken it in time to actually stop things from happening.
I honestly hate this phobia - people think it’s just ‘well everyone hates being sick’ but it’s so much more than that - I clean excessively, I avoid majority of foods that can cause food poisoning, I won’t use milk once it’s been opened more than a day because I’m scared it’s gone off, it controls my whole life, I can’t drive anymore because I’m scared of throwing up and not being able to pull over or get home - it’s got to the point where anywhere outside my front door feels unsafe to me, I just want to hide away forever.
AIBU to just ask for a handhold to stop me going into a full blown panic attack right now