I've NC for this as I'm slightly embarrassed and DP says I need help.
Basically - I hate my body since having my baby 16 months ago. I mean I physically despise my reflection and I burst out crying when I see it. We went on holiday a few weeks ago and I spent most of it trying to hide my "mum tum" by the pool.
Here's the thing. I am 5' 8", I weigh 10 stone 8 (148lbs) and wear a size 10-12. BMI is 22.4. At its highest post baby I think I weighed 11 stone but my BMI still fell within normal.
DP doesn't understand that I don't care what's "normal" according to a chart. I just see my post baby body - with its imperfections and rolls of belly fat which were not there pre baby - and I want to cry. Pre baby I was around 10 stone and a gym toned size 8. I think this doesn't help. I can only compare to how I used to look.
DP kept saying "you're literally the slimmest woman around this pool, how can't you see that?" I can't. It didn't matter. I just want to be the woman I was before.
I cried at most of the photos of me on holiday. Can't bear to look at many of them.
Do I need help as DP suggests? Or can anyone else relate?
Please no nasty comments, I'm very low about this. 😓