I definitely have some sort of mental health problems which don't help.
I've always been shy and lacking in confidence despite many interventions/attempts to improve it. I've now just accepted it as part of who I am.
I was bullied at school a lot, I mean for years on end, and I think that a small part of it has stuck with me sadly.
I did well academically, have a degree and qualified as a teacher. I can speak different languages and have lived abroad.
I've always suffered with boundaries, I always seem to (and my partner thinks the same) have friends who don't value me that much, wouldn't make the effort to travel to see me, that sort of thing. Some of them make small jokey comments and I can't tell if they're digs or not but then other times are lovely.
I've struggled to hold down a permanent job. I've never been out of work since graduating, but it's always been temp work. I do have one job I've now had for over a year but it's part time and min wage, alongside other work. I don't have the confidence to go for a full time teaching role. I feel that I'd be rubbish and have poor behavior management skills plus I'd end up getting bullied by other staff, this has happened in a couple of jobs.
People joke about my work situation but I feel ashamed of it.
I am 31 and have a partner of 2.5 years who's 27. I don't think he'd be ready to get engaged this young and this is another thing that worries me.
Finally, I'm trying to lose 3/4kg but can't do it. I'm addicted to sugar and carbs, managed to do really well for a few weeks and lost 2kg but it's gone back on. I always seem to have something to be stressed about in life which doesn't help.
I can have low self esteem and always think that others are better than me even though there's no proof.
I've already spoken to a doctor about this and take anxiety medication which helps to an extent.
I just want to get my life in order, get a house deposit sorted, build confidence in myself and get my work sorted.