29 weeks preggo with my 2nd, already have a 3 year old. Took us a while to be ready for the 2nd plunge as I found the first pretty tough. Just found out my mum has stage 4 breast cancer - so terminal. We don't know how long she'll have.
Obviously we are all really upset by the news and I apologize if this sounds a bit selfish but I'm really freaking out about how I'm going to cope. My husbands parents are in the Caribbean and my dad died when I was a child. My mum's our only reliable source of extra help which went out the window a few months back now. I was so depressed with my first and now I'm wondering how the hell I'm going to cope with 2 children a newborn and a very full on toddler and a dying mother who will also need looking after. I have friends and brothers and a sister but everyone works and obviously my mum will be the priority for my family now. Friends all say they'll help out but when it comes down to it they're all busy and can't/won't drop things to prioritize me (like a mum would).
I have a challenging relationship with my mum, she can be quite difficult. This is the 3rd time she'll have had cancer so I know what to expect and it won't be pretty. Apart from this time she'll die at the end.
I'm sorry this post is incredibly morose but I'm just finding it hard to see anything good at the moment. It's sucked all of the joy from this pregnancy and I'm just a bag of anxiety. I feel like I'm not connecting with baby anymore and wishing I wasn't pregnant. Her movements fill me with dread. I do have a therapist but it's not always helpful - I'm thinking of trying someone else.
Sorry for the long rambling post. Just a bit desperate and wondering if anyone has any suggestions/input.
Thanks gals x