Does anyone else feel guilty for arguments with parents when they were younger?

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It was with my Mum mainly due to personality types. I haven't had any sort of arguments with my parents for years now, I'm in my early 30s and they're mid 50s.
I was never involved with drugs, police etc. And never really got in trouble at school but I could just be really stroppy sometimes and answering back a lot.
I didn't swear at them really, I think the most I ever said was 'what the hell" or something like that.
But I would have these sort of meltdowns and be crying and shouting and getting worked up over nothing. I did used to wonder if I had ADHD or was on the autistic spectrum.
It wasn't constantly, we also got on great most of the time.
I've got a 20 year old brother and he also had his teenage arguments for sure where he could be quite insolent, but I've never seen him crying and shouting.
We had a couple of arguments when the first lockdown started but nothing at all since.
I see them weekly and have a fantastic relationship with them, they are incredibly supportive.
I think I've really learned how to regulate my emotions since then luckily. I know I was a teen for the most part and shouldn't be so hard on myself but I still feel guilty sometimes.
Does anyone else ever feel guilty like this?
My Dad is a very quiet person and kinda 'stayed out of the way' which is why it didn't happen much with him, though it did once or twice, he could lose his temper.
People these days comment on how I'm very mellow and calm and I hope that's the case.

I remember as a teen buying my Mum flowers and apolgising after one or two arguments so at least I showed some remorse I suppose

It sounds very normal. I have teenage DC at the moment and I'd forgive anything with them and my DD sounds much worse than you. Your DM was a teenager once. No need to feel guilty. I do look back myself and feel guilty though as I was quite a wild child in my late teens!

Hormones - I was awful wouldn't recognise her now

Definitely! A lot! I just try and be nice in the now even though she’s still annoying 🤣 I understand her a lot more nowadays.

Yes definitely. I have guilt over losing my temper with both my parents at times and now they are both dead 😟and I can't tell them that I'm sorry.
But speaking as a parent myself, my son has lost his temper with me many times, so in a way, I guess it's just part of parenting and in hindsight I hope that my parents also saw it like that 🙏

Thanks for the understanding and it sounds like others have been through the same thing.
I can't even remember what half of it was about, but it likely was hormones.
I read somewhere that our brains don't fully mature until we're 25.

I'm sorry about your parents :(

Can you talk to your mum about in now and say you are sorry?
I am sure she will appreciate that and will probably tell you about arguments she had with her parents.
Then you can have a cuddle and a laugh and she will be happy with your apology.

Yes I do.

I can't change the past so I try and make sure now I'm an adult I give them no worry.

I look after them now to some extent and our relationship has changed.

They are older and I'm making up for being a typical teen when I was a bit of a dick at times.

For me, they are older now and need looking after with bits and pieces

I was awful to my mum, even in my twenties. My mum's no longer here and I wish I could have told her how sorry I am. (Although I have since heard that she was just as bad, if not workse than me!)