It's all I can think about. I know that's awful. I'm a horrendous person.
I can't stand my DH. He's an overgrown teenage boy who feels sorry for himself despite doing no work and no childcare. I've worked my absolute arse off the last few years and now earn a lot more than him, I've done up the house, I put in the deposit originally by myself and I saw a solicitor yesterday and she said I could end up giving him more equity because he won't be able to get a mortgage v easily as earns so little (He went part time to look after the kids but doesn't nothing of the sort(
I've been trying to put my DC to bed for the last 90 mins. They're small. Every time I leave the room the 3 year old follows me and starts screaming and waking the other DC up. My house is trashed. My 3 Yr old hits me regularly.
I feel absolutely like I'm going break. I can't stop thinking about grabbing the car keys and just driving forever.
I don't want to leave my kids with him. I couldn't. But I feel so sick the thought of being here one more day. Its like a physical feeling of wanting to run. I just want to sleep. And be left alone.