Posting after yet another night of hell.
my life revolves around my IBS. I’m fucking sick of my life being ruled by where the nearest toilet is, or feeling fine then suddenly being hit by cramps and diarrhoea. I’m sick of cancelling things because of being unwell. I’m sick of crying in public toilets because everytime I come out the cubicle I have to rush back in with yet more diarrhoea. I’m sick of not being able to wear certain clothes because of the risk of a sudden attack.
im sick of it
im not stressed or anxious. I have a healthy diet and do a healthy amount of exercise. My life is perfect apart from my irritable fucking bowels and I’m exhausted- why can’t they just be normal? Just last week I had diarrhoea 23 times in one day.
ive tried food eliminations, probiotics, buscopan, dairy free, gluten free, wheat free, mebeverine, loperamide, FODMAP. I avoid caffeine, alcohol, and smoking. I have a good sleep pattern and a good lifestyle.
i know some people have it much worse, like IBD etc, so I feel guilty for complaining about IBS which is minor in the grand scheme of things, but I’m exhausted with it all.
I have a really supportive GP but we’ve exhausted all options. I’ve been seen multiple times by the gut doctors who basically told me to go away because it’s just IBS as my bloods, fecal and calprotectin were all normal (well they didn’t say go away, they just made it clear they were annoyed at me for wasting their time with IBS). I tried to explain to them that I believe them when they say it’s IBS and I’m not denying they are correct, but I need their help to control the symptoms. They just said stop being anxious but I’m not. I’ve even tried antianxieties in the past which didn’t help either.
I insisted on getting a full set of tests done as the symptoms were getting worse, and the gut doctor (reluctantly) put me on the waiting list for a colonoscopy and ultrasound last year as I hadn’t had either. I’ve had both last year and they were clear which was a relief for me, and they basically said there’s nothing else they can do for me because I have to manage it myself and it’s just IBS. They won’t help anymore. But it’s also beyond my GP as they said everything they’ve tried hasn’t helped it.
another question for anyone who knows this stuff more than me- I was always told a colonoscopy is used to decide if it’s IBS or not. I was told I was getting a colonoscopy but only found out afterwards by accident that it was a sigmoidoscopy I had not a colonoscopy- is that just the same thing? Does a sigmoidoscopy diagnose IBS too?
Thanks for reading if you got this far- I just needed to get everything off my chest.