DP went to a funeral yesterday. Some guy in the music industry that he knew, not a close mate, but anyway, he was out of the house from 9.30am until 4pm. Came back and did bugger all until bedtime when he put them in the bath. Did bugger all again until he went out again at 8.30pm. He got into bed at 4am (he was out DJing). He's still in bed now.
I'm breastfeeding a 4 month old and dealing with a 6 yr old who has SN's so is more like a 2 year old which happens to be the age of her other sister.
My back is killing me as it does when you lie in bed breastfeeding for 4 months and lift and carry two other kids.
DD1 and DD2 are like twins in many respects as they are at the same development stage and bicker constantly over toys - 'my rabbit' 'no my rabbit', 'no MINEEEEEEEE', 'MINNEEEEEE' cue screaming and 1 of them charging into me crying.
I feel, not tired, it's well beyond that, I feel utterly drained.
Give or take the odd disturbance he's been in bed for 8.5 hours now. I feel like leaving him just to see when he'll decide that he's had enough and anyway do I really want him down here just sitting round in his dressing gown drinking tea for 2 hours before he gets in the shower and then asks what we should do about food?
It's at times like this I wish I wasn't breastfeeding so I could go out and leave all 3 with him and see how he likes it. But he'll get up and DD2 will go for a nap, DD1 will watch a DVD calmly and DD3 will have a feed and go to sleep as well. So annoying.
And as he knows he's left me to do too much on my own while he a) managed to escape the house and b) sleep, he'll constantly hug me as a way to make it all ok which will just irritate me and make my back hurt evenmore!
Rant, raaaah, grizzle, maon, whinge, whine, agggghhhhhh and so on.