I’ve f*ing had enough.
I work in a fast paced catering environment and my best just isn’t good enough for anyone.
There’s one chef in particular who finds fault in everything I do. For example, we were low on a specific food item today so I shouted down for it like I’ve been trained to do. I also said there were plenty of the other food items we usually use as a substitute at that time of night. She muttered something but I didn’t hear her as the queue was horrendous. I shouted down again when it got even lower and she snapped at me that I have legs and to go cook it myself. I told her that the other food substitute was available and she spoke to me in a really slow and sarcastic tone in front of customers (“Well, you didn’t mention that. Did you?” … Yes, I bloody did!).
I was sweeping the floor as she was counting the money so I was going to get to the till area once she was done. She grabbed the broom off me and started pointing out the areas I’d “missed” (I.e, hadn’t yet done because she was stood there) then did it herself whilst tutting and giving me dirty looks.
The girl I worked with today told me she prefers to serve than work behind the till. Whilst she was microwaving stuff in the kitchen, I took over the food preparation to try and help her out. She told me to stick to the tills as otherwise she gets confused. So I did. Then I was shouted at for letting her “do all the work”.
They think I’m stupid and said that my siblings (who are in university) obviously got all the brains. I laughed it off but in all seriousness I feel like s**t. I have an ADHD diagnosis and have struggled my entire life. My confidence is so low I won’t even drive anymore because I’m terrified of losing concentration with a toddler in the car. A few months ago, I lost my (second) cleaning job because I forgot to dust something and left a dirty cloth out (we were in the middle of moving house and I was absolutely shattered. My child has never slept well).
I'm feeling so sorry for myself tonight. I don’t even want to try anymore because I continually get knocked back, no matter how hard I try.
Even my friends laugh at how scatty I am. I’ve really worked on my timekeeping and can proudly say I haven’t been late for anything for years. Yet I still get labelled as “unreliable”. My friend threw a barbecue and asked me to bring bread and pop. She told me afterwards that she has brought some as a back up, just in case, as she knows what I’m like.
Everyone can f* off. I’m done! Might just call my manager a twat and be done with it.