To start drinking again

[Giveoveritchingandscratching]

I haven’t properly drank alcohol since March 2020, drank regularly until my Dd was born in 2018, then a little when out every now and again, but not much.
Got covid in March 2022 and subsequently, long covid. I remember drinking two glasses of wine and having a petrifying reaction later that evening (3 in the morn) which I later found out was histamine overload. It scared me so much, I’ve only had half a glass of champagne at a christening last October. I didn’t have the same reaction but did feel achey and not great. Fast forward to now…touching wood massively here, but nearly all my long covid symptoms seem to have gone since January 🙏 and I also got covid again in May and seem okay so far (again touching wood!)
Should I try drinking again? I sort of miss it, but can’t even imagine/remember the relaxed feeling of a glass or two. Or should I just continue being sober…I mean, it’s been over two years and hardly any since 2018…that’s a long time!

What do you feel you would gain by starting again?

Yep, what would alcohol add to your life?

@RachelGreep87 @VaddaABeetch I’m not sure..maybe be a bit more back to being *Me, a bit more relaxed etc 🤷🏻‍♀️
The last couple of years with all this and looking after a young dc etc, I just feel I’m so uptight and not me anymore

I feel a bit weird though as Dd has never seen me after a drink…not that I’d ever be drunk in front of her, but I always feel I have to be so in control since having her…it would be weird

I'm at the same point in my life, stopped drinking 2 years ago because I couldn't cope with the hangover anxiety the day after. Not touched a drop since September 2020. I've stopped going out and dh just goes by himself for a pint on a Saturday for an hour. I use to love having a few glasses of wine and thinking whether to start it again but I'm scared of the anxiety. Reason is the same as you op to feel me again and more relaxed. Hate the fact I can't enjoy a glass of wine in the garden on a summers evening 😏

If you want a drink, have a drink. It's not like you're an alcoholic and that's why you had to give up drinking (in that scenario I would be saying the complete opposite obviously).

If you fancy a glass of wine then have the goss of wine and see how you feel. If you have a reaction that is unpleasant then at least you know and maybe you will have to stop for good. But it might be fine or you might find you're not as fussed actually, now that you are 'allowed' it.