I had two DC in my late teens, my partner at the time ended up being very controlling and emotionally abusive. It took me almost 3 years to leave him, as each time I tried to end our relationship he would withhold money and contact with DC which made life really difficult. I was so stressed during this time I put on a huge amount of weight, I went from around 10 stone to 15 stone.
I eventually managed to leave him, I got a degree and started planning for the future, but it all feels like an uphill struggle; after years of feeling stressed out I just keep thinking what’s the point? I’m still struggling with my weight, and general feelings of motivation, I feel like I’m going to feel this way forever and it’s awful.
Day to day I do all of the care for my DC, my ex has them every other week but I mostly use that time to catch up on stuff I haven’t been able to do while caring for them.
I met someone last year but that turned out badly in the end, I have no confidence to meet new people but I find it so lonely being a single parent. I luckily live nearby to several family members who are involved in DC care (willingly!) and collect them from school and have them overnight here and there, so I have the time to spend with friends and meet new people, but once I have my alone time I end up moping around feeling sorry for myself.
sorry for the rambling, directionless post - but I really do feel like my life is shit at the moment, I don’t know what to do to improve things or how to start enjoying my day to day life more. I know there must be more to life than feeling this way. I used to be a really positive and upbeat person, but the daily monotony of doing the same things has really worn me down, combined with how bad I feel about my size, the prospect of being single forever, and being uncertain of what path to take career wise. I have thought about getting therapy or counselling but I’m not sure there is any point.
any words of wisdom would be really appreciated!