Name changed because I’m so fucking embarrased.
Already in my late 30’s, never had a partner, never been loved.
I’ve searched and read all MN threads about finding love later in life and also all the threads about positive stuff about single, so I know I shouldn’t give up and apparently it’s better to be single than in not so great relationship.
But I feel like I’m drowning in emptiness, but I just won’t die.
I feel so horrible and I’m so scared and I’m so jealous of other people who get to live normal lives…