I just slept all afternoon

[LongSleep]

And I feel guilty about it.

I had a bit of a mental health crisis a few weeks ago and the Mental Health Team at my GP changed my medication. My sleep and eating habits are all over the place due to the medication and it's affecting my sense of balance. I keep having dizzy spells.

I’m a single parent to a 7 year old DC.

Don’t get me wrong despite being a bit neglected this afternoon I’ve tried my hardest to keep things as normal as possible. We went out this morning to the nearest city – got the train rather than the bus (it was cheaper and we don’t do train very often – I do drive but not to the city centre as there’s never any parking) which DC loved. We bought some new bits of school uniform and ordered their school shoes ready for pick up in a few weeks (we can change size online up to 48 hours before delivery as it’s an independent shop) and then went out for lunch.

Came back on the train (about 30 minutes) and then walked 1 mile home.
I felt very faint walking home, and I have fainted a few times over the last week or so due to the heat/new medication mixed.

We got in, I handed DC their big water bottle and crawled to my bed thinking I’d be an hour, I slept 2-5pm.

DC has been fine, loved watching unlimited cartoons they literally sat and watched Cartoon Network all afternoon knowing them and has eaten their way through one of those big boxes of sweets from b+m but is otherwise fine.

I just feel guilty, I should of been sat with them and watching them and playing with them.
.
They’re in holiday club a few days later in the week but I’m having to work as the MHT thought signing me off when I’m already stressed could add to my anxiety. DC isn’t due to see their dad for a few more weeks, there’s a CAO in place that gives 1 night a fortnight but he always goes the first 2-3 weeks of the summer without seeing DC then takes them away for 2-3 days to “make up” for it aka he goes away on a childfree holiday himself

Officially I have diagnosis’ of Mixed Anxiety and Depressive Disorder, PTSD and Social Anxiety Disorder.

Come tell me what I did was awful?

Doesn't sound awful to me. It was only 3 hours. DC was safe, fed and watered. You quite clearly needed the sleep and will probably be a better parent for feeling rested.

Nothing wrong with what you did - they’re 7 not 3 anyway and it seems like the best thing for you in the circumstances

YABU. You were very busy, you were tired, DC was safe and happy with cartoons and sweets.

Maybe it's lack of food and dehydration as well that didn't help? If so, you could try having a stash of quick snacks or bottles of Lucozade/a premixed protein shake to reduce the chance of feeling dizzy again?

In any case, make a nice dinner for the two of you and ignore the criticisms that are in your head.

Meh I spent most of my childhood sitting on the floor watching cartoons. My mother was always outside having a smoke. You’re not well, you slept. So what. They’re 7 not 7 months.

I ate and drank with DC at the pub @NeverDropYourMooncup the new medication lowers your blood pressure and it's to do with that, hence me getting tired while my body adjust (I have slightly too high blood pressure anyway)

Nothing to feel guilty about at all. Possibly not gold star parenting if you did it every day but still not terrible.

Your child was fed, loved, safe and warm and had some chill out time themselves while you slept. Sounds like you both had a recharge.

That sounds fine - busy morning our and about and a chilled afternoon. They would have woken you up if there was a problem.

Give yourself a break. Life with kids can be relentless and sounds like you needed it..If your kid needed you they would have woken you up.

You've got nothing to feel guilty about obviously

But if you are feeling bad, waking up at 5pm, logging straight into Mumsnet and typing that long OP is rather odd.

Why not spend time with your DC now?