I have an ex friend who I haven't spoken to in nearly two years (so many reasons we don't speak anymore I could write pages). The short version friends since school, been through a hell of a lot together (death of her sibling and my friend), really intense stuff for young adults to go through and mainly me being her shoulder to cry on (which I was 100% happy to do). Fast forward a few years later and I had my first baby and had PND, it was the darkest time of my life and I wouldn't wish the way I felt during that period on my worst enemy. She wasn't there for me through it and was very distant. Because of my situation I stopped reaching out to her purely because my head wasn't functioning and when I came out of it I realised she had gone, without me contacting her she never contacted me. We spoke about it (because I reached out to her) asked her if I had done something she said I hadn't, was very off with me, I explained what a dark place I had been in etc. She was very cold and from there we sort of decided to stay civil as we have mutual friends and wished each other well and moved on with our lives. I found it very difficult and it's taken me over a year to finally stop feeling hurt and feel in a better headspace about it all.
Until last night. She was out in our town and so was my OH (we have recently got married) she made a beeline for him and told him how hurt she was not to be invited to our wedding. Said she realises she should have been a better friend during my PND but still felt she had been wronged by me for not inviting her, he said they spoke for about half an hour about it all and she was crying etc she also blamed a mutual friend we have and said she had stirred the pot. This might sound ridiculous but I feel so upset and annoyed about it today. I feel like I've been through a grief losing her friendship that I was finally getting over and today it just hurts all over again. I'm not sure the point in this post really just helps to get it out and hear if others have been through similar. It's ridiculous really but it's like a relationship break up feeling and I hate it. I don't want to be her friend again but I feel I want to justify myself also.