…To ask if you’ve ever felt this way

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Me and my husband recently had a potential pregnancy scare. It ended up negative and we both blew a sigh of relief as we have three children already. Our house wouldn’t be big enough for a fourth and neither would our car. We struggle with any help as it is and only get one night out together a year (no exaggeration). And that’s before even thinking about the cost of an actual child.

However, this week both my sister and my sister in law have both announced pregnancies and I don’t understand why, but I feel jealous? I’ve never felt like this before and don’t understand why, when I know it’s not the right time and my baby days are done. I feel really pathetic and childish to feel this way but can’t help it!

What is wrong with me? Has anyone ever felt like this?

Yes then it passed as my 2 dc got older and we realised introducing a baby wld upset a happy dynamic

Yes! Grieving is too strong a word, perhaps acknowledging is more appropriate ... so acknowledging that that stage of my life was over. Never go on that voyage of discovery again of finding out whether you were having a boy or a girl, choose names, be the centre of attention for a brief period and, more importantly, meet and get to know this little person you've created.
I'm now some years down the line from this and find that I'm very good at spending £££ in somewhere like JoJo Maman Bebe on cute baby clothes, being a helpful visitor and then being given the baby to hold and getting quite bored after a few minutes!