That in the past 11 years i have somehow lost all my friendships
after having a baby in difficult circumstances I had severe post marek depression and then went on to be in domestic abuse relationship.
during the time I tried to leave I felt really unsupported by my best friend and so I proceeded with a friendship that this girl hated but who was a support to me. My bf never spoke to me again. Which makes me feel sad I admit I did some things I didn’t realise hurt her but equally she was not able to see that her hanging around with someone who punched me was hurtful. Iv recently ended this friendship with the other girl as she turned nasty and was making me feel shit.
i have lost another friendship group as I let them down a lot by not attending events and they just gave up.
i lost another friendship when my ex best friend told her I’d said stuff (which I did i was upset that she was bad mouthing me behind my back and saying stuff about my then young baby).
in that time iv thrown myself into work but had difficulties keeping friendships as I can’t keep up with plans being a single parent.
i see all my old friends close on social media and it makes me feel sad. What is wrong with me surely it’s not normal to have that many fall outs with people. I don’t know what I could have done differently
i feel isolated and alone I only really have about 4 friends and I dont feel close to them. I never used to have these difficulties before I was a mum did the depression change me? I’m so lonely and feel
worrhless and don’t know how to change it. Did I expect too much ?