To head out to watch the sunrise in my own at a local beauty spot

[blackheartsgirl]

I’ve had enough. First year death anniversary of my husbands passing yesterday, my mum has in all probability got cancer ( the hospital has found things and she’s got a PET ct scan on wed), Im struggling with my own mental health, 3 of my dcs mental health, dd2 school refusal, dd1 and ds have autism both are very down atm not surprising at all. And I’m wide awake because my dd 2 (15) is being selfishly noisy in her room, (don’t go there)

I have got to get out of here desperately, I’m never alone, my physical health is crap I’m under cardiology at the moment plus holding down a full time job I’m cracking up

ive just got this urge to grab a flask, a blanket and go and sit on top of a local pass to watch the sunrise. My 20 year old dd1 is here so my 15 and 12 year old wouldn’t be alone. Aibu?

I’m so sorry to hear of your troubles. Go for it, sounds like just what you need. Sometimes we all just need to get away xx

Of course not. Do it! Just leave a note on the counter top in case someone gets up before you get home. Maybe go for breakfast after at a local cafe?

Does 'local pass' mean 'bypass'?

Imo it's too late to go out by yourself. Try and go to sleep. Things will look better in the morning.

No it means a mountain pass. I live in a very beautiful part of wales.

I like the idea of breakfast at a cafe!

I won’t go until it’ starts getting light don’t worry. Sunrise isn’t until 4.58

Do it! Life is short.

Do it. You need to. Hope it helps you.

Dh and I used to do it a lot when he was well. There is something so beautiful about it.

the urge to be by myself is overwhelming

Definitely do it! I'm always going out to watch the sunrise. You can't beat it. Flask of coffee and enjoy the beauty the birds, and the peace.
I hope your day improves x

Do it. You need it for you, but also for them. You can't go on supporting them if you fall apart. Also you matter, your needs and mental health and grief matter. You can't keep running on empty. I love sunrise, it makes me feel peaceful and hopeful, even if only for a moment. If it helps even a little you could have a regular morning a week where you go watch the sunset and have breakfast on your own. My DC are Autistic and have MH issues, I know how hard it can be and then on top of that you're dealing with your loss as grief and theirs too. It's a lot for anyone to have to cope with. You need a little bit of time that's marked out as yours no matter whats going on. I hope you can find that.

Why wouldn't you? I do that regularly and I'm not having q stressful time

Do it! And then maybe make a routine of doing it once a week! You deserve self care.

Do it. I live next to a local beauty spot and do this regularly. I am looking forward to the darker skies and more intense colours we get in the autumn.

Was it beautiful op? I always find I can breathe in nature in a way I can't at home.

Played snow white last week when I needed a break, going to my local woods/lake and watching ducks, song birds and squirrels fight over my birdseed. Did the trick.

Thanks everyone. Unfortunately it was foggy and grey so couldn’t see a thing 😂 but I saw lots of wildlife and listening to the silence was pure bliss.

i got back at half five and my dd1 is making me a coffee as I’ve just woken up. I do feel better :)

Yadnbu

Thank you and I’m definitely going to do this.

I’ve just finished a book by Emma Mitchell called The Wild Remedy and she uses nature to help keep her depression at bay whilst acknowledging that it’s not a cure but rather an aid to supplement medication..

Firstly @blackheartsgirl , I am so sorry for your loss and difficulties.

Secondly, please do continue to do this. There is something so special about it, it is my favourite time of day. I do it on a very regular basis and it keeps me sane. It's also the only alone time I ever get, so I hold it dear.

Thirdly, I don't know this book but shall look it up. Thank you for sharing!

Here's some of my most recent sunrises, and please do share photos when you go again!

There is something very special about watching the sunrise. The best hit if working nights in the summer, is that we get some stunning sunrises over the city.

@boopdeflouff

your photos are wonderful!

I was quite gutted about my foggy morning but hopefully soon I’ll be able to go out again and see another one.