I just can't take any more
DH is absolutely horrible to me and it doesn't seem to ever end unless he is doing something for just himself an he wants me to have all the kids or something
Been together 10 years, 4 DC, usually okay but seems he's having a meltdown of some sort to the point he can sit thwir for an hour screaming how I'm a dirty horrible fat ugly slag for no reason an goes on that I had sex with people before I met him? I can't change my past before I met him so I don't understand the issue, he has kids previous to me so makes no sence this is an issue to
Him as I only have children with him
I'm just so drained this week, I have a lot going on with 2dc due to them been poorly so I have lots of appointments with them and then been pregnant on top but I run around like a headless chicken to keep the house running and everyone happy but I'm done ?
Last week I was up at 5.30am to ensure tea was in the slow cooker,dinners done, dogs sorted, house cleaned then everyone bathed an dressed as I knew I'd be home late with oldest 2 as we was at appointments. I left at 7.30am with them, he got up as I left as he had the youngest. I got home that night at 8pm, I got back, cleaned up the mess from the day, sorted the dogs, settled the 2 children an then got uniforms etc ready for the next day. Soon as I sat down he just railroaded me.... he had things on his mind "?
He sat for an hour screaming at me to the point he jumped up an got in my face doing it. I just sat an took it an said nothing to think "it'll be over soon"
I'm been told I'm a shit mum etc etc kids will be ashamed when their older of me etc. He's done this every night since or if we're out he says "what you looking at" when I have my head down to avoid this..... or do I know XYZ when I have no idea who they are he says I'm lieing, I don't go out or have SM or anything
Iv tried to leave an get no we're I have no family or money to just up an go. He knows this. We was fine but I feel since I got pregnant (planned) he's turned an he knows I'm trapped so have to deal with it.
I just keep thinking what if I just do hang myself ? Save me from the misery an hopefully him an the kids can be happy. I can't shift this thought at the moment I'm so broken
No nasty comments please