My mental health

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I think I'm a high functioning burnt out depressed, stressed anxiety ridden Mumma.

On my day off from work in the week, I dread my friends texting to meet up (I feel bad) I just want to eat rubbish and sleep until school run, I want to be alone. How I walk into work with a smile and energy persona and get the job done, I don't know its all fake and I hate it.

I have a list as long as my arm, of things I really need to do but I just can't face it. Then at the end of my day off I hate myself that I didn't try or make a start. Then I'm full of anxiety that I'm f%%%ing up my life.

I know I'm depressed, some of it is from bad health and life and some of it right now is circumstantial (we have had a really really rough year) that has definitely plunged me down into despair.

I just feel totally numb all the time, I feel sad everyday and every night and I feel zoned out. If I can get to sleep at night, (not always) I'm out, but I wake up still exhausted.

I used to be super fit, healthy, motivated, bags of energy, I feel so sad I'm not there anymore. I just try and do the basics everyday, around the house, cooking, clubs ect but then im so tired I can't function.

Has anyone been through this, what helped you overcome the depression please.

I am so sorry for you. I am in my seventies and have always been an optomistic person,able to cope with my problems and help sort other people out. Recently, all I have wanted to do is stay in bed and cry. I have developed psoriasis so severe my dermatologist thought I had suffered a major trauma.She advised me to see a psychiatrist and luckily I live in a country where specialists are not expensive and quickly available, He told me that covid, and I have not been a sufferer, has affected some people severely. He has prescribed new medication and though it is early days, I am feeling so much better. He said his most severely affected patients are women who are copers.Maybe food for thought. Good luck and feel free to private message me. It has been absolutely horrible.

I often feel I'm just going through the motions

Hello. Are you me?

I've been feeling this ways since lockdown one. Tried anti depressants for a year, got off them (they helped a bit and got me to a better place) then it's all felt awful again and I am trying to make some big changes to my life now to see if that helps.

Yes, been there OP. Do yoga, online if you already have too much else going on. I do Les Mills body balance. It gets you out of your head and I am definitely far less stressy since doing it. You can do 15 min, 30 min or 1 hour.

It will not magically solve all your problems or revolutionise your life, but it will help you deal with the nonstop drama that life seems to be for many of us at the moment. And you don't have to wrap your legs behind your head either 😁

I would also be considering PANDAS for your DD.