I'm losing my mind arent I?

[Queenie6655]

TW

Dv and attempted murder

So long story short

My awful idiotic dangerous ex H tried to kill me a few years ago

Started with the kitchen knife
Then broke my rib
Then attempted wit his hands around my neck

We got out ok (me and kids)
He still walks around free

Thing is
I have this odd survivors guilt - like I should be dead how am i still alive

What The hell is this ??

Due to start counselling in a few weeks but I only just started today to talk openly about how odd this all is

TW

I am sorry you went through that.

I think our brains have infinite ways of tripping us up, especially when we have survived something traumatic.

Working through the way you feel with a professional is a really positive thing to do to start to free yourself from misplaced survivors guilt. You have nothing to blame yourself for, you did exactly what you had to do, you survived. Everything else is window dressing.

All the best.

Thanks so much

Just so bizarre to feel so sad and guilty

But then how does anyone react to a shit situation like this??