I am probably going to sound really ungrateful and pathetic but just need a little vent.
We have an 8 week old dd as well as an older child from previous relationship. Dd is lovely but colicky and cries a lot. I am finding maternity leave hard and a little lonely at times. My older dc is 12 so it's been a long time since I did the baby stuff! Also elder dc goes to ex husbands every other weekend which gave me and dh a lot of free time for weekends away, nights out and so on. That isn't possible anymore. And even if it were we are both knackered. By the time we sit down on an evening dh tends to just fall asleep in front of a film which annoys me as by this point I'm just craving a bit of adult interaction.
We have very few relatives who would babysit so I can't really see an end to this.
Our house renovation has stalled and we are living with a lot of half done jobs and mess that we don't have the time or money to sort right now.
I know I'm very lucky to have a baby, a dh and a home but despite this I just feel a bit trapped and hopeless at the moment. Aibu? I don't think dh realises how draining and lonely it can be being stuck alone with a crying baby all day.