So today was my 8th working day in a new role (totally new company and I'm the 3rd recruit in as many months).
My first 4 days last week were VERY disjointed and went totally off schedule. (but the company is young and small - around 11 employees in total).
I didn't expect much of the induction but on the other hand I didn't expect to be sat there being ignored (only 3 employees in the office as all others wfh). My own role will mainly be wfh so I was a little baffled as to why I'd been brought all the way to London to be sat there doing nothing. So I took initiative to look through content on shared folders and do my own swotting up on product knowledge etc.
Yesterday I arrived at the London office again and wasn't even greeted by the employees when I walked in (one of whom is my line manager). They didn't look up from their screens and so again, I just started trying to keep busy. Eventually they gave me something to do but it always feels like it's in their own time.
My grandad is poorly and has been readmitted to hospital as of yesterday so my aunt sent me some messages to tell me and keep me updated. Since I wasn't very busy I replied of course. I was on my phone for approx 60-120 seconds.
Today, again, walked into the office and no one greeted me. The schedule for the day was suggested and my line manager said she wanted to have a catch up with me at some point. I said that's great. She then said actually let's do it now.
She took me to her office and asked how I was getting on/finding things etc and I said it was fine/i was enjoying it etc. She then went on to basically give me feedback (that I hadn't asked for) and said that 1) I'd made a mistake with something I said to a customer last week (they sprung a customer visit on me last minute which wasn't part of my original induction schedule) and 2) to please not use my personal phone in office time. I swiftly took the opportunity to say oh well actually my grandad is really poorly so it was about that and it's useful that you know now because I'll likely have a funeral to attend soon. But on reflection it's annoyed me because they've literally had me sat twiddling my thumbs and more or less ignoring my existence and also every one else uses their personal phone so I feel like it's a "do as I say and not as I do" situation...!???
It's hard enough being new to a company as it is never mind one which is small and close and clicky but to be picked up on something so small is annoying. If she thought I was being rude then I could say the same about them?
The "mistake" I made was literally a piece of incorrect info and neither here nor there. Completely rectified. But the info got back to her super quick so it was 1 of 2 colleagues that told her. I just feel completely stalked and judged by people and it's only my 2nd week?
This 121 was completely sprung on me with no time to prepare which also annoys me on reflection. It didn't give me chance to reflect and prepare anything that I wanted to say.
Following the meeting I had to go straight back into the office with everyone with a smile on my face all the while feeling a bit insecure, judged, on the back foot, and distracted by the fact I have a poorly grandad and just want to get on a train and go back home.
ERGH.
AIBU or is starting a new job always this hard at first? A lack of things to do. Totally reliant on other people. And an outsider who's being judged. That's how I feel.