need a bit of help

[flumpyface]

I don't want to waste anyone's time with a long story.

I have physical and MH problems. I have a lot of issues with the people in my life, family etc. Been to GP, private therapy and all that, I work (self emp wfh) /earn/have savings so they won't help me.

I'm not for one second saying I should be in front of anyone else in terms of access to limited services. It's just the attitude seems to be that I need to wait until my life is destroyed and I can't earn.

I never knew MH could get this bad. If you had known me 4/5 years ago compared to now you wouldn't recognise me.

I want to walk to the end of the road and back. I need to take some control back, rely on myself and all that.

I feel like I can't do it. I think maybe if I could it would change things.

If you're reading this I hope you have a good day.

Are you in the UK? I've never been means tested or anything before getting assistance from the mental health team.

@SlashBeef Yes UK. I've just been told I earn a living so I can't be that bad. I work in graphic design and basically I can do poorly and still earn. I'm not minted or anything but the way the work is set up has masked how ill I've become.

Is there any affordable counselling or talking therapies in your area that you could investigate? Or even counselling sessions via Zoom?

@Kimmy567 My post just got deleted.

I think I need therapy specific to my issues, which all seem to be not taking new patients. When I had therapy before it helped a bit but really wasn't effective.

A couple of nights ago my partner woke me up very early in the morning swearing and shouting at me about the window not being open correctly. He won't acknowledge this. He acts like he is the hard done to party.

I used to be so self sufficient, its scary to face this. Recently I had to have an interview at the bank because they thought I was being abused. DP made a joke of this.

The other night I said to him "maybe it isn't that she thinks you're abusive, maybe she knows you are.

That hasn't gone down well.

If you feel unsafe, please seek help. If you feel uncomfortable, see how you might change these difficult circumstances. Very best wishes xx

Your partner is abusing you?