To think i must be depressed and this isn't normal ?

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So lately I've been thinking about dying a lot, and what's the point in anything if we are going to die Anyway. I think about it every day and i don't know why. I am 34 so I am wondering if I'm going through some sort of mid life crisis or I'm depressed?? I'm actually depressed at the thought death but this is a sudden feeling and never had these feelings before. My whole day is focussed on 'well what's the point because I won't be here for ever'
I don't know how to get rid of these feelings !!

Yeah it’s not ideal. It does sound like you might need to see someone and have a chat. And don’t worry, there’s hope.

I think about these questions myself from time to time. IMHO ignoring the facts of life and death is weirder than acknowledging them...

I’ve felt that way since I was about 7 or 8.

Has anything happened recently that’s made you face your mortality?

It is very normal to go through a what’s the point stage around the time of realising our mortality.

The next (healthy) stage is to figure out a purpose for your life. Some people never reach this stage and a spend long period of time in a bit of a vacuum. The most fulfilled people figure out a purpose and focus on that.

I have heard and read that the healthiest people live with a sense of purpose and that often this includes a level of servitude for example working with sick people or volunteering, something focused on the betterment of others and society as a whole.

One way of looking at it may be to find a way to contribute positively to the lacework of history, however small, rather than focus on personal gain.

Like pp, mortality is something I’ve thought a lot about since a child, and the older I get, the more I think about it! The thing is, it doesn’t depress me. Being alive at all is such a random piece of luck, and we’re all in the same boat, with the same destination, so that makes me feel quite sanguine about it all.

Hmm, it's normal for those who like to think about things. You have to decide what to live for! Look up existential therapy theory

Ah, the existential dread has set in - hardly surprising after the events of the past few years.

Are you the type to find any comfort in exploring that and mulling over the thoughts of others. There’s loads of materials that might be of interest to you including some very digestible podcasts - you’re basically getting into the realms of some really interesting philosophy that can lead to some fairly spiritual (not necessarily religious) discussions.

I would advise not ruling out mental health completely though, if your motivation has gone and you’re unable to find happiness in anything then a chat with your GP should be something you put in place.

This is a very helpful assessment for depression, OP. If you get a high score, please talk to a doctor asap.

I've been experiencing this since a very young age, but I have clinical depression. It never got any better and it ruined most of my relationships. The mental health services are really poor at the moment, I've been on the waiting list for therapy for over 7 years and they've been giving me antidepressants in the meantime but they don't make a difference. And I've been on 5 different kinds. I'm currently going through it untreated and the thoughts are occurring very regularly. Really is a difficult place to be

Thanks everyone.

I feel like I can't enjoy life now that I have this thought in my head. It's weird how it's come on all of a sudden but now everything becomes pointless everything I do feels like a pointless task. I look at my Children and I want to cry because one day I will no longer exist, and then they will no longer exist. I just feel sad. I want this thought to disappear so I can go back to my life like it was before and not he so fixated on dying. I honestly feel sad that we put all this love into our babies and looking after the to one day never seeing them again