I've just gone back to work after a number of years (caring for disabled DC) and I was so excited to be getting back out there, couldn't believe my luck getting a suitable paying job etc.
It's public sector job a bit different to my exact area but thought I would be good at it. However, I'm really starting to think it's a BS job that only serves the function of looking like the public sector is addressing an issue. Not sure I've ever been this demotivated. I feel a complete fraud but have had so long out (and before that lots of jumping around finding the right career) that for my CV I have to keep going.
The vast majority of my emails are completely ignored, I'm not invited to key meetings, all my ideas are turned down before I've even been given half a chance to explain them, today I offered expertise and was actually laughed at. I got a glowing appraisal though. So very confused and unhappy. AIBU in thinking I'm just another completely pointless official?