Not sure which job to go for

[Thebreeders]

Work through a supply agency, I'm a qualified teacher but haven't completed my ECT year.
I have just started a welfare/admin type role in a school which I've really enjoyed, and I have to admit is very relaxed, low stress, no behaviour management required. Not classroom based, can walk out at 3:15 with no work to do etc.
It's paid £10.30 an hour.

A different agency have a teaching role in my subject, which will be paid approx £17 per hour. 8:30-4pm.
However I'm aware that teaching can be difficult. I've never done long term teaching but I assume I'd be working beyond 4pm for planning, marking and such.
I had a trial as a HLTA in a primary but I didn't get the role as the TA reported to the head that I seemed 'uncomfortable' (i posted about this).

I shouldn't have but I guess it has knocked my confidence a bit. I do enjoy my current role, I know money isn't everything but £10.30 an hour vs £17 is a huge difference.

I don't want to leave the current school in trouble. I mean I'm sure they'd get someone else but maybe it's not fair to just leave.

Have to decide by the end of the week really as it'll be half term.
Basically stay in a role with great hours that I enjoy and feel good at but lower pay, vs much better paid role but harder and more work ?

You've found a great job - that's a rare find. So the decision is, do you want to give it up for a higher paid and higher stress job?

How will you feel in a few years when you look back and reflect - that you missed a career opportunity or you let go of a great job with a lot of stress?

You're right, I think I'm lucky to have found this one.
I'll have to really think about it, it's a significant pay increase

Will the teaching role potentially lead to a permanent contract that will allow you to complete your ECT year (assuming that’s what you ultimately want)? If so then this would be a good “in”.

If you stay in your current role you could commit to yourself to develop in education management. Theres lots of non teaching roles in education, so it doesnt have to be a lifetime commitment to your current role.

However, if you want to go into teaching its best to do it sooner rather than later. The longer you leave it may make it harder to return.

So the question is, do you want to teach or not (forget about a random comment by a TA)? If that hadn't have happened, what's your preference?

I do want to teach, I think I am just scared of going and the school will say I'm rubbish/can't manage behaviour/not delivering effective lesson etc.
Then I'll end up with no role and will have lost this good role I have. Just feels too risky.
If i had a booked long term role cancelled because of what that TA said then I feel like it could happen again

You sound so so unconfident. You need to work on that especially if you want to teach. You didn't get that other job - take it as feedback and move on. Perhaps you did come across as uncomfortable- own that and work on it. Do role plays with family or whatever to gain confidence ( I have actually done this in the past as I used to be shit at job interviews and was sick of it!). Work on yourself and become more confident because honestly it's a no brainer- a pay increase and a move towards teaching which you say is where you want to be? Why hesitate.

I read your other thread. I think you're building that experience up into more than it was. You said at the time it was just a trial, not a long term booking.

If you want to pursue teaching you'll have to take a leap at some point. The opportunity is there now, why not?

Worst case scenario, you decide teaching is not for you after all and put that ambition to rest, but you have this alternative career path to explore instead because now you know it's a good fit for you.

I could have written your post and the responses here have really helped me. I qualified then never did my NQT (as it was then) because some officious twat at a school wrecked my confidence and made me feel like I wasn't good enough. Mine was a term's worth of co-ordinated workplace bullying culminating in my contract being ended early, and my union membership expired so I thought I couldn't do anything about it (looking back I should have been on the phone to ACAS before the door closed on the way out). I let it all slide because I thought they must be right and that I was just in denial of being a shit teacher.

I'm now looking at either getting a job as a teacher and doing my ECT or going in as a cover supervisor and working my way back to confidently teaching again.
I did the low-paid low-stress jobs and felt unfulfilled after about 3-6 months each. I started my own business and did ok but still felt unfulfilled.

I'm on the fence about going back but I'm angling towards the higher paid/higher stress role because shopping and nice holidays are my way to de-stress. I'm scared because the ECT is black-and-white pass/fail and takes 2 years now instead of 1.

I'm scared I've forgotten how to do it so I'm currently working through some of the OU's OpenLearn free courses which include quite a few teaching practice courses designed to strengthen your pedagogy and reflective practice. They're helping my confidence, you can find them here if you want to see what's available (there's all sorts but I'm doing the education ones): www.open.edu/openlearn/

I think what we both need to do is choose our next teaching role/school very carefully and not get registered for an ECT in an environment where we fundamentally can't succeed. Schools are so different to each other!

You passed your PGCE and got through it all without dropping out so you must have met the standards to be a teacher and take the next step but it's also fine if you don't want to! Is your job offer from the same agency that pulled an assignment based on the opinion of the head who listened too much to the opinion of a TA?