I'm a decent person I think so anyway. I'm kind, thoughtful blah blah blah but I just feel I'm not a strong and brave person. I agree not to disagree (is that even a term). I avoid confrontations. I don't call out on cf and I am a peoples pleaser. Deep down I'm a fake because I'm not like that as a person at all but I don't show it. I allow people to step on my toes until one day I have had enough but then don't know how to strategically manage people but instead get all red eyes and attack like a bull which makes me look unreasonable. People would think that I have anger management problems but for me to get to that stage, I have given little by little pieces of myself and then suddenly I realise I have nothing left and then I bite.
AIBU that I will always be like this as a 35 yo?
Is there any books, life coach or therapists that will help me to transform myself. I want to be like Anne from Workin Moms but without the anger issues. I realise people take a step back from the hot headed ones. But then again I'm not overly a articulate person and really don't know how to use my words. I grew up with 3 older brothers who were at each others throats if that makes a difference :)
Please share me your experiences of what has helped you.
Thank you.