AIBU to ask your help to find me the name of film about mixed race baby in orphanage in Ireland?

[JetTail]

I watched this film maybe 10 years ago.
I can only remember that she was a little girl who was mixed race (mother Irish, father black).

She was in an orphanage and treated unmercifully cruelly. Things like being told to stand outside all night long age 7 and then have to make Rosary Beads all day the next day.
The lady went on to move to England and became a nurse.
It's probably one of the most horrifically moving films I have ever watched.
However, I can not find it. No matter what I google.

I think she was born in 50's, 60's maybe? She was a little mixed race girl as I've said and was put into Drogheda (for some reason is coming into my head?).

I'd love to find the film again. It was the most moving film I've ever watched but I cannot find it since!

It may have been a documentary?

Sounds like the plot of one of ' Waking The Dead ' series with Trevor Eve and Sue Johnston.

No, I think that it may have been a documentary, because the woman was interviewed at the end. She was a nurse in England. Maybe 60 ten years ago?

Philomena, perhaps?

Or, more likely, maybe based on the life of Christine Buckley
Dear Daughter, a drama documentary

Oh my God that is it. I've found it. ifiarchiveplayer.ie/dear-daughter/
I've just turned on the first 2 and a half minutes and I'm already heartbroken. I'm not sure if I can watch it again. Thank you for finding it. I've meant to recommend it to a friend and could never find it.

@SageRosemary Can I ask whether you had watched it yourself? I am not sure how I came across it and it's one of those which never leaves you. It was the turning point in fact for me and religion.

Obviously, the father got away scot free.

She was an incredible woman by all accounts, and became a very well known campaigner and activist. Not sure if you’ll be able to read the article below about her which was published when she died.

www.irishtimes.com/news/social-affairs/christine-buckley-a-21st-century-irish-hero-1.2049815

Thank you for that. It's incredibly important to me to see that she survived. The awful thing about it is that I identify with so much of her story. And I've managed to to watch it again and am sobbing. How the fuck can people be so cruel? I don't disbelieve her. I suffered similar abuse.

People now declare that I have some sort of fucking mental illness. I don't. I was tortured as a child and I have survived, with some mental scars. That's all. I'm not mentally unwell.

And posters on here in particular are the cruellest sometimes. "I've seen your post about your mental health". "Don't post here again until you get help".

If only they knew what I fucking survived.

I hate how MN allow people with mental crises be silenced and not listened to. Yeah, that's great MN. Well done you for protecting the lovely sane mums from the lunatics.

So sorry to hear what you’ve been through. As far as I know her later life was happy and she had a happy family life. I didn’t know her personally but I know people who know her family and she seems to have been universally adored.

Unfortunately it doesn't calm your mind or erase the memories.

I've just re-read my reply and it comes across as rude. Yes, at the end of the documentary, she had a very happy family. What I was trying (abruptly unfortunately) to say was that even though you can survive abuse, it never really leaves you. How she came through all that and also the other little children I can't imagine. I thought it was a very innovative way that they depicted it in some parts where instead of child actresses, they had the actual grown women. The bit on the landing and them all calling out their number. FFS. What the Catholic Church got away with through the fucking centuries is unforgiveable.

I totally understand that. I’m sure something like that could never leave you. Wishing you all the best.