Trained really hard to do my new career (health) . Got a 1st despite being bullied on 2 out of 3 placements.
1st job ..got managed out. 2nd job....treading water/ firefighting. Joined at a difficult time with new systems/ chaos etc. Lots of criticism, support put in place but too late...my self esteem is shot. Passed probation but boss is not over the moon with me. Made yet another error today.
At the same time dd has been having anxiety attacks which has impacted on work. I was getting calls from her etc.
I was shit at teaching too. Am so down. All i want to do is earn a decent living for my family and be good at my career...feel like a failure.