I was suffering from horrendous panic attacks 15 years ago. Was off sick from work as literally felt like I was going to faint all the time (then was more worried about the embarrassment of fainting in the office than the actual panic attacks!). Even had a CT scan as dizzy and nauseous all the time. Prescribed beta blockers, Prozac and on waiting list for therapy. Never believed in panic attacks until I started having them, thought people who them were pathetic. attention seeking, drama llamas!
Had one while I was driving DC on a day out, picnic packed, looking forward to it. It terrified the life out of me as thought I was going to drop dead at the wheel. Had to turn round and drive slowly back home. Decided enough was enough and I’d get them hypnotised out of me.
The hypnotist used ‘regression’ therapy and basically said anxiety normally extends from childhood. Could just be one incident. He told me to remember myself at x age, what was I wearing, what could I smell etc. I was completely blank for 6 very expensive sessions and then had a memory that I’d always had but it was like I was experiencing it in real time and it had expanded so could see more. It was so vivid. I was sobbing in utter fear and speaking like a child. I wouldn’t have believed it if I hadn’t experienced it myself.
The memories involved my absent father who I hadn’t seen for over 30 years so I thought the panic attacks might clear up if I met him, took the skeletons out of the cupboard and put them in the trash so to speak. This culminated in me confronting my mother for her singling me out for physical and psychological abuse as a child and refusing to let me see my father after their divorce. Opened a massive can of worms and my whole family disowned me as I upset her by confronting her. Validated my therapist telling me I was the family scapegoat as I hadn’t believed it til then. Taken me years to grieve for them and come to terms with it and I’ve often wished I never had hypnotherapy as it set me on that road.
Panic attacks stopped though 😀