Hi all, I need some advice. I started my job at the beginning of January after a year of being out of work. I work part time (three days a week). I also have long-standing mental health problems: I have a diagnosis of borderline personality disorder.
Since January I have had a really good few months. Felt good and stable with no issues. Then last weekend I completely crashed: suddenly feeling painfully low. Lots of thoughts about self harm and suicide. It’s hard to explain how being so low feels. It’s like even thinking or talking is to much effort. It physically hurts.
So last week I called in sick to work. This weekend I am feeling slightly better but still extremely low. I don’t know whether I should push myself and try to get into work or get a sick note and rest. I am worried cos I haven’t been in this job very long although they were aware of my mental health challenges when I got the job.
Really I feel to Ill to work but is that lazy? I just don’t know what to do. To complicate matters the week after next we are due to go on holiday so I am worried work will think I am skiving if I am to Ill to work but I can go on holiday.
help!