Hello. I would appreciate some advice. I posted some months ago regarding my situation. I had a period of depression late last year after my marriage ended and I stupidly slept with my manager. It came about when I was signed off sick and he started messaging me every day. I confided in him about my separation and - I believe now looking back - I was coerced into sleeping with him. The reason I say that is the depression was awful when I was signed off. I couldn't think straight and I don't think I was in a position to make that kind of decision. I was taking Prozac and the side effects made me feel hazy and were generally awful.
I was new to my role at the time and when the flirty messages started I didn't really know how to stop it all once I got involved. Omicron was around at the time so I used that as an excuse as to why he didn't want to go out on a 'date'.
I thought we were becoming friends and I was able to open up to him about my mental health. Anyway after speaking every day for a few months and thinking we 'had something' he dropped me like a stone as soon as we slept together. Stopped replying to messages, or taking a day to reply
What's worse is how he treated me at work. He started saying good morning to everyone but me. I'd turn up to find everyone in a meeting or training session I wasn't invited to and when I asked id be expected to catch up or sort it out myself. My younger female colleague became the next centre of attention, giving her more interesting work and letting her WFM more than is allowed
It came to a head when I called him one day and got quite angry about the situation. I'm not proud of that. Since then I've asked to move teams which has been granted (I made an excuse as to why I wanted to move) he walked past me the other day and didn't even say hello
I feel worthless. I've developed a major case of imposter syndrome and feel shit at my job. I feel like no one would ever want me
I wouldn't normally do this. I know it was a silly thing to do. I just felt alone.
I thought this would be my career but I've been looking at temp work and I've found something. Should I take the temp role just to get out of here? Or any tips on how I should stick this out? I still cry most days, a few months on.