Am i selfish that I don't want anymore children? (Late night thoughts)

[cocoo43]

Hey I am 21yrs old and I have a lovely 1yr old boy 16month exactly I adore my son and love him to pieces but I don't think I want anymore children being a parent is too much for me

Sometimes if it's not for my partner who's such an amazing dad I wouldn't have my head screwed on I feel selfish that im not doing enough he wakes up in the middle of the night from the beginning since our son was born he just lets me get my rest which im so great full of but he also goes to work but he never complains when he comes back from work he's a very hands on dad let's me relax and have my own time.

I just find it soo hard mentally to be a parent im not depressed or anything but sometimes my son is just such a handful I just can't cope
I hate the consent worry , anxiety that comes with parenting that you just want to make sure your child is okay 😫

Well tbh I won't say I'm not depressed because sometimes I do get up and down emotions with parenting so maybe I have to speak to a gp

No you are not selfish OP. You are still young though. I can relate to a lot of what you have said I had my first at a similar age and was adamant I wasn’t having anymore. I wouldn’t change a thing but I totally underestimated how hard being a parent would be and I didn’t have much family help.

What helped me was going back to college/uni and having a part time job where I felt I had an identity out with being a mother. I did end up having another child but 7 years later.

I think the worry when you have a child is normal and at 16 months parenting is exhausting though