Almost 15 weeks pregnant today and although I am happy with my decision to proceed I am also struggling with some feelings of guilt.
My partner decided at 11 weeks that he was out, threatened suicide if I didn’t get an abortion so I have not spoken to him since. I know logically in my head that it is my choice. But why do I feel selfish keeping a baby he doesn’t want and which may also make him suffer mentally. Am I just traumatised by things that he said? I’m struggling to think of legitimate reasons why fathers should be involved with children they didn’t want. Again I know
logically they should be but if they didn’t want one WHY should they be? Maybe he’s just manipulated me so much that I am not seeing sense!
I also feel slightly guilty for this child. I know there are amazing single mothers out there and I do not feel that they shouldn’t have gone ahead so I’m not sure why I am applying those feelings to myself. I guess I’m just terrified I am doing this for selfish reasons because I want a child?
I guess I also have guilt for my family and friends who will have to give up their time to support me and that too feels selfish. I feel like they want logical reasons off me for why I want to keep it which aren’t just because I want to!
ugh anyway I know a lot of this is just hormones but has anyone else felt this way!