I need a good cry/rant/handhold.
I’ve posted before about struggling with ibs and my cramps and diarrhoea.I’ve been getting some recital bleeding, not everyday but enough that I’m concerned. I’m waiting on a hospital appointment but I honestly don’t believe I’ll get seen this year or next year- the waiting list is enormous and it’s only a standard (non urgent) referral. I’ve called but it can’t be sped up. I’ve had poo tests and blood tests and both were fine which is a relief. No inflammation or coeliac. Calprotectin normal. My GP referred me to the the hospital due to the bleeding and no obvious cause for it.
I’ve had another bad flare up tonight and I want to curl up in bed and cry. I didn’t have diarrhoea or bad cramps so I didn’t expect it to be bad, but I went to the toilet and it’s extremely dark brown/black and it’s like sticky tar. Usually when I get bleeding it’s red and I’ve always presumed it was rectal because it wasn’t black, but recently I’ve started getting these black poos aswell. I didn’t eat dinner tonight as I wasn’t hungry so the black poo just came out of nowhere.
I’m so exhausted with it all. I know I should be grateful not to need an urgent appointment because it’s obviously deemed unlikely to be serious which I’m extremely relieved about, but equally I’m having diarrhoea, cramps, red blood and now black poos too.
I just want an answer and a way to stop these awful symptoms. I can’t afford to go private so just need to wait to be seen but I’m starting to get worried about it all. The black poo tonight gave me a fright but equally I know it’s much more likely to be harmless than it is something problematic, and I’m not even 30 yet so it’s unlikely to be anything serious thankfully, it’s just horrible not knowing what’s causing it and also not knowing when it will be fixed by.
I think I just needed a bit of a cry😥 these symptoms are ruining my life on a daily basis and it’s going to be so long before I get an answer or a treatment