Children going absolutely off their heads today (3&6). They were jumping off the furniture, throwing Lego around and screaming whilst not listening to a word I said. Craving a minute's peace I finally gave in and let them have half an hour on Lego Worlds on the PlayStation. It keeps them occupied but I don't like to fall back on it. I quickly nipped downstairs for a wee, 2 minutes I was gone, I come back upstairs and 3 y/o has smashed his PS controller into the TV and broken it. I've had to break the news to DH who is WFH upstairs and on back to back phone calls. He's disappointed in us and it's my fault. 6 y/o keeps going number 2 in his pants because of ASD issues (we're waiting for an assessment).
Im sick of the smell of shit, the screaming, the constant treating me like a vending machine. I'm behind on my college work because I can't take my eye off them even for a wee, it would seem.
I've asked my parents if they could help by visiting or we could go there but mum has a nail appointment so that's them busy for the rest of the day now, supposedly. I'm on antidepressants and have been for years and I'm feeling myself slowly but surely sliding off a precipice. I just can't keep them entertained, they're only interested in destroying the house and each other.