So just over a yr ago a close family member asked me to be her MOH, i really dislike everything about this role but as we are so close I reluctantly said yes, At the time I thought it was a smallish affair with just myself and her DD as bridesmaids. A few months later she then told me that there were actually going to be 5 bridesmaids and 5 groomsmen. I am so happy that she gets to plan the big day she wants and her wedding party is totally her choice, however, I am a very low key introvert and feel really uncomfortable with being part the huge wedding party stuff. She 100% knows what my personality is like so I feel that she should have given the details before asking me. Also, the guy she is marrying is younger so his groomsmen are all 30ish, while I am early 40's. She has been super bitchy towards me over past few months about organising hen weekend etc,. I have recently started an extremely busy job and I am often away from home for 2-3 days travelling for work, along with running my own home/family and trying to help my parents as my mum has a very serious illness. Apparently, thats no excuse for not being on top of bridesmaid duties!! Anyway, things have taken a toll and I am now in avoidance mode. I really want to get out of this before dresses are finalised etc......but am I being a horrible person to jump ship when wedding is in 5.5 months. I know I will not be able to commit to the time that she will expect closer to the wedding and feel it will cause more drama. I still really want to support her in other ways and will of course contribute financially to everything I would done have as a MOH. Advice greatly appreciated x