Today has been a bad day, but I'm just so sick and tired of zombie-ing through life at the moment. I'm on Mat Leave with DC2, DC1 is at nursery FT, DP works FT in the week and spends every spare hour working on our house renovation that has been going on for over a year, while we are living in it. I am exhausted. I am constantly cleaning, child wrangling, doing washing, tidying up, or planning and cooking meals. DC2 still isn't sleeping through, and is still in the same room as me because thier bedroom is part of the renovation. DP and I can't share a room while DC2 is in with me because DP snores like a train and wakes the baby. Every morning I wake up, and it's the same relentless drudgery of a weaning baby desperate to feed themselves solids, but doesn't have any teeth so gets frustrated at sucking/gumming food into oblivion before accepting soft vege, yogurt or purees while toddler DC1 finds new and interesting ways to whinge and whine through mealtimes (was a great eater, is fab with thier sibling at all other times, struggles with the attention dynamics with a weaning sibling at mealtimes). Since DC2 arrived (by planned C-section) last summer I've had two bouts of mastitis, two lots of antibiotics for an infection in my section scar, laryngitis, covid, countless colds, we all got gasto over Christmas, and have been diagnosed with PND and Anxiety. Still have over a stone of baby/lockdown weight to loose but am so tired I struggle to stick to my slimming plan, and am sick of wearing the same clothes every day as nothing fits me. Renovation plus mat leave means money is super tight, and now DC2 is crawling they get super whiney in the pushchair... I loved being on Mat leave with DC1. It was hard, but so rewarding and I got alot of joy out of seeing them grow and develop. This time round I feel like I am just barely surviving each day, going through the motions to keep both the kids fed and happy, so DP can work on the house, and I feel like such a shoddy parent and partner.... Please tell me it gets better?