Absent father-rebuilding relationship

[LonelyInAutumn]

I've been NC with my dad for a few months (i have a previous thread on this). He stopped by the other day and he seems to want to rebuild a relationship. I'm sort of open to it but also scared. I have set some boundaries e.g texting only, no phone calls, can't just randomly show up to my home, should attend therapy etc.

When he stopped by the other day, I didn't really want to speak and when I went to close the door he put his foot there to keep it open. I couldn't close it and ended up having a panic attack. I ran outside without shoes on, to my neighbour and she let me in and called my mom.

After, my dad apologised and we went for a drive to so we could talk and clear the air.

AIBU to think it won't work and that I'm being stupid?

I'm NC with my dad myself. It took me a long time to realise, I owe him nothing. I endured dreadful, dreadful visits with him and his successive girlfriends as a teen. He was controlling, volatile, and sometimes wouldn't give me meals. I did it all thinking "He's family".

If it's easy and/or fun to reconnect, do it. If it's difficult and/or upsetting, don't, you owe him nothing.