I love it when people say they always knew Jimmy Saville was a wrong 'un even as a small child in the '70s. I don't disbelieve them, I just marvel at how smarter than me they must have been back then and even smarter than my parents and everyone I knew.
It's a bit like when people my age and younger say they always knew Diana was being used as a brood mare. I didn't. I thought it was wonderful and so did my sister and all my friends. In our dreams Charles would have had a head transplant with Prince Andrew, but you can't have everything, even in fairytales.
I remember watching the wedding and my dad saying she was a brood mare and my mum telling him to shut up. Sorry, dad, you were often right and Mum was sometimes wrong. She was a bit swept up in it but most of the time you were both right.
I was born in 1964 and I absolutely loved Jim'll Fix It as did my schoolfriends. I was dying to go on it but couldn't think of anything to write in about. If I had been chosen, I can't see why my parents wouldn't have let me go but one or both would have come with me. That was because I was a child and like most parents, they took their responsibilities very seriously and loved me very much.
Probably both of them would have come because it would have been an exciting day or days out for us all. If anyone had tried to separate us they would have walked me away, probably crying and not understanding and they would have tried to explain things in a way I could understand without being too graphic.
Like most people they were nobody's fools but I want to make it plain that is not the same as me calling people who have been manipulated and intimidated, fools.
It is frighteningly easy for that to happen especially when money and fame and people running around with clipboards and barking: "This is how we do it in TV Land. Now you sit there while we take your little girl into Make Up and to meet Jimmy alone."
Being fooled has happened to us all to a greater or lesser extent and anyone who says they've never been taken in ever over anything is either extremely forgetful or a liar.
The thing is with paedophiles whether they are famous and never charged like Jimmy Saville or even more famous and acquitted of all charges like Michael Jackson or just the anonymous bloke who lives down your road with some puppies to show you, they pick their targets. They choose the vulnerable who won't be believed. It would be very stupid to target a child whose parents were around all the time and would scream blue murder.
Saville's victims of choice were wayward teenage girls from care homes who people thought of as little tarts. They still do, actually. Or girls from naicer homes who'd come for an exciting day out hoping to meet pop stars on TOTP and maybe getting on the telly not dreaming that they were going to get groped or worse.
Maybe my parents had Saville's number all along and if a letter saying Jim would fix it for me had arrived they would have sat me down for a serious chat along the lines of: "If a man comes up to you in the swing park and says mummy's ill and he'll take you to the hospital to see her, don't go with him. Use the 2p from your emergency money to phone Mrs Turner next door but don't go on your own. Walk to the phone box with your friends and stay there. until Daddy comes". But that never happened so they didn't have to do anything and I carried on enjoying Jim'll Fix It on Saturday evenings.