Feeling blue after good holidays / seeing friends?

[IAMGE]

I wonder if this is just me.

I’m a single parent but have built a lovely home with my children and animals. I love my home and sometimes ‘dread’ going on holidays. But if I go away on holiday or visiting friends and it’s been great I feel really low when I get home. I think I miss the company.

If the holiday is going well I wish it would last longer leave feel a gut wrenching pain and feel really tearful. I don’t cry. When I get home I feel sad even when I am pleased to be home as well.

I just feel sad.

I’ve often wondered if it was me, I had a lonely childhood and my parents were awful to me. When I moved out and came home they used to sometimes give me a great visit and I would mourn leaving and feel low. If they were foul and abusive I would be upset and leave immediately - so I wonder if my leaving someone is always tired up with my emotions. I’m totally NC with them now so it’s not an issue but I’ve always felt like this when visiting and staying with friends and having a lovely time.

Can anyone else relate? Is there anything you do to speed the healing process?
TIA

Oh I feel you, I get the same feeling, I can't really trace it back to a childhood thing or anything but I do get horrible anxiety and dread leading up to going somewhere (on holiday or to see friends or whatever) and don't want to go at all (can't really rationalise it into any logical fear or concern, its non specific), then when it's time to come home having had a nice time I do feel that low/flat/sad sensation as well even though I love being at home . I can only rationalise it that I struggle with the transitions, like a small child does! So I do a bit of a similar tactic with myself as I would with a toddler and it seems to help a bit, ie prioritising eating and sleeping well to avoid hanger/over tiredness at a time I know my mood may be a bit weird anyway, being clear with myself about what is happening when, how long I have until we leave (going home in 2 more nights, 1 more night, 1 more hour etc - this isn't me wishing the time away as I'm usually having a good time, more just warming my brain up to the change upcoming), clear plan of what will happen when we get home (I get overly discombobulated and stressed about normal things like what to cook for dinner or when to have a shower if I haven't made a clear plan in advance) and then try and distract myself for that transition period and things usually seem to return to normal once I'm back into my usual routine? Very odd, would love it if someone could explain to me cognitively why this happens!