To find life a bit of a slog!

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Anyone else get so fed up with the necessary irritating tasks of life? This post is going to be first world problems I guess. In a way, I wonder if living in a society where we don't usually have to worry about having the basics has rid us of some of the only distractions we have from focusing on how small and shit life really is. I just turned 35, have an amazing husband and a 2 year old and it's a legitimate STRUGGLE to keep doing repetitive tasks every single day. Can't take a break from all those life requirements while at same time having to chase money to continue receiving the privilege of having the basics covered and more.
Yep I've travelled, done all that, most of the 'life experience' stuff people go on about how amazing it is.. but me, eh, it's still just life being lived in a different place.
I've been this way most of my life.. that sense of being aware like "welp, this REALLY is it. There is no grand climax, it doesn't change, it just.. IS."
I'm not even clinically depressed. Sadly it's my nature since something happened childhood (long story). I suppose practicing contentment and meditation can help a bit. I just feel trapped in existence, despite knowing that’s exactly what I am. I just wish I could become some mindless robot who just does lives without thinking about existence. Sorry about the long rant, is anyone in the same boat and what do you do to feel any better/ not overthink?

I understand where you're coming from. No answers though.

Exact same here.

I get it. I also don't have any answers.

I'm 35 too and I have no answer but I could've written this myself. I feel exactly the same way.

I take ADs, it takes the sadness away and provides a numbing effect.

Sometimes I sit in the sun with a good book or have chocolate and wine and for a second feel AMAZING and then I quite quickly feel annoyed that my life is mostly not lovely and is often tedious and demanding and repetitive. I have not cracked enjoying existence and am a bit dissatisfied 99.5% of the time. So I get where you're coming from and don't have the answer to contentment at all.

I look forward to retirement! Planning lots of reading, holidays, brunches & lunches out and sewing!

Thanks for all the comments. It's slightly reassuring to know I'm not the only person who feels this way.

Hi OP. Happily married with a healthy 16mo DD here. I do feel like it is all such a drag at the moment. Last week when the weather perked up it felt a lot different suddenly. Even booking a holiday is such a massive chore due to all the admin and the research and the worry about it being the right place to go. All feels quite uphill.

Feel like a terrible spoilt brat now for having said that. I am very very grateful for everything... it's just such a hamster wheel life constantly cleaning the kitchen floor....

I find I need something challenging to distract my mind onto. Currently for me it’s running but when we first got the chickens it was them, and it’s been work things occasionally too. Something challenging that I mull over so I don’t focus on the monotony of daily tasks. The more you make tasks into a routine the less your brain needs to focus on them so that helps too. I also like to have my next holiday booked and a couple of outings planned. I still get moments of…is this all there is to life… but that helps me.

You sound like you’re stuck in a rut. Can you go on a trip? Change of scenery might do you good? These feelings will pass. Life is mostly mundane but it’s also full of highs and lows. Maybe you’re going through a boring patch at the mo.

I feel exactly the same, it feels like I am trapped in the never ending cycle of mundane meaningless tasks and the joy in life doesn't ever outweigh the looming feeling of all the "to dos" that will never go away.

Oooh honey, I feel you!

Life for me is, a lot of the time, a bit of a lurch from one source of anxiety (at various levels) to another. You get one thing sorted, and other is right round the corner waiting!

Do you have enough variety in your life? Are you tying enough new things, and have enough goals completely of your own (hobbies etc.)?

I think I get it; I was washing up today and had a moment where I thought "what's the point of this when it'll only get dirty again tomorrow, and every other day after that" but whenever this happens I nip the thought in the bud as it's not being in the moment and feeling content with stuff getting clean right now. I found meditation really helped with this.