Name change.
This is going to sound awful and I won’t be surprised or offended if you think IABU but I really need to just say this out loud.
I have been a mother for over 20 years and I’m mentally exhausted. I didn’t find it this difficult when they were younger which is why I had more than one child. I’ve supported them through all of life’s ups and downs and will of course continue to do so. However it’s gotten harder the older they get as their problems have become bigger.
My 2nd child had quite severe mental health issues when she was younger. I fought really hard to get the help she needed and now apart from the odd blip she is doing really well.
Unfortunately my youngest has now also started struggling with her mental health. It’s proving really difficult to get her the right support. She gets really angry and stroppy, which I know to a certain extent is normal teenage behaviour, but this is on another level! Trying to get her to do anything around the house is met with huge, angry resistance.
I’m just really fed up and so so tired. It feels relentless and never-ending. I have to admit that some days I feel like I wish I hadn’t had them. I fantasise about going away on my own for a bit to just rest and sleep.
Their biological father isn’t around and so it all falls to me. Dh is an excellent stepfather and they love him but naturally always look to me when something is wrong.
Thank you if you got this far