I'm heavily pregnant. I've got covid. I found out something is wrong on my baby's scan, but they don't know if it's serious yet or not and my toddler now has covid too.
I have had a very difficult pregnancy. Suffering from HG since the beginning. Being on meds to control it, but it's still a struggle every day. I just don't feel right. I feel nauseous or have severe indigestion somehow, every day, for a great part of the day. Being tired makes it worse.
Since entering the third trimester, I've had a resurgence of the nausea and just been generally physically exhausted. It's been a LONG few months of just not feeling well, pretty much every day. Now the bump is huge. It hurts to walk and to move around and I'm out of breath very quickly. I can't do much.
I am really struggling with the feeling that the bump is squashing my lungs. Since having covid and coughing a fair bit, the suffocating feeling has become even worse. I also have suffered from the most horrendous blocked nose. So I feel like I can't breathe in my chest and also in my nose. Plus, I feel sick and have heartburn. My lungs have also been painful. So I couldn't breathe deeply and when I do/ did, it hurt too. I have been feeling like I'm constantly gasping for air.
I also cannot sleep. At all. I'm awake all night and can't rest in the day either. I have restless legs. I had the same in my last pregnancy and basically got no sleep for the last 6 weeks before birth.
Sorry for such vivid descriptions, but just trying to get across physically how it's just been very hard for me recently.
Since testing positive, I've really tried to remain calm and collected and not let it get to me. My DH has also tested positive, although barely has symptoms and has been incredibly grumpy and short with me. He's fed up of being home and ' wasting ' time. He's constantly wanting to get stuff done on his computer and just leaving me with our DD.
She's now also ill. Has had a fever since yesterday. Naturally I've been worried. But again, I'm trying just to push and push on.
I've been trying to get him to stop being grumpy and just be with us and kind of make the most of it. He's been short with me and having a go at me about silly stuff, like getting recycling wrong.
This evening, DD was bouncing on the sofa. He had been on his laptop for a few hours, essentially leaving me to take care of her. I started not feeling so good so I asked him to take over for a bit and he said sure. DD kept really bouncing on the sofa and I asked him to get her to stop. He kept ignoring me and I kept asking. She then looked like she nearly took a back flip off the sofa so I screamed out of fear for him to finally get her to stop. He looked at me in disgust and told me to shut up, in such a horrible nasty way that I completely lost it.
I know we are all stressed, but he just has no idea how hard I have been fighting to get through and not fall apart and then he is rude to me like that, when all I was trying to do is to protect my child. I was really afraid she was going to fall down backwards and crack her head open. He shouldn't have continued to let her bounce around and he should have stopped her the first time I asked.
Alas, nothing happened. She didn't fall. But I'm feeling quite hurt. Just thinking about the past week and even before. How shit I've felt physically and how I just don't think he's been very kind. He's barely asked how I am. I ask him all the time if he's feeling ok.
I'm seriously feeling sorry for myself. I get that. But it has been really difficult.
I'm just praying my DD recovers and I continue to get better and DH also doesn't get any worse and that of course my baby is healthy. I'm very worried and upset and just needed some support from him. As usual, he can only think of himself and how the situation is impacting him and his work. 