I'm in my first graduate job working in marketing as a writer. I like the actual work (writing) and I've been told I'm good at it for my level by my manager. Because I like the actual work and get good feedback it has been really difficult for me to accept that I hate the job and am miserable.
I hate going into the office. I avoid it as much as possible (we are hybrid). I can't explain it but I just don't feel comfortable there - it's a huge open plan office which is really swanky and 'cool'. I feel like an imposter there.
I have nothing in common with my colleagues even though we are all the same age. They live in the city and are well-cultured and like all of these fancy restaurants and I'm from a small town and my idea of a good meal out is TGI Friday's lol. I just don't click with any of them even though I've tried, it just feels like I'm not their tribe and I've noticed some of them ignore me.
My job has another office local to me that I went to once as my internet wasn't working so I hot desked there, it was a smaller office and a different department but I felt much more at home there and the people there were much friendlier. It's not my department but it made me realise how much better things would be in a different environment and around different people.
I'm not sure what to do or how to go about things. It's difficult too because a lot of job interviews are still remote, I know if I had attended an in-person interview for my current job I would have turned down their offer after visiting the office.