I'm going through yet another really rough patch, probably the worst in about a year and while I'm taking venlafaxine I still feel like I just need something to soften the impact at the moment. I have taken 10mg diazepam before but for pain and so I know I can function on it, I never experienced the 'high' feeling that everyone said I would, it was just easier to deal with the pain. I understand that it's addictive and I wouldn't want to take it long term, I just feel like I can't cope with life at the minute.
I've had multiple rounds of councelling, talking therapies, CBT etc. They haven't worked for me. I don't know how likely it would be that I would be prescribed it but what is the worst that could happen if I asked for it outright? Could they put a note in my file that I'm a drug seeker or something? (I'm not I'm just aware that it is a strong drug and that there is potential for abuse).