Low self esteem - embarrassed to do anything!

[selfesteemgonee]

I suffer from really low self esteem. I’ve tried all the usual - therapy, journaling, counselling etc.

I’ve realised how rigid I am because of it. For example I can’t sing to myself - not because I care about how my voice sounds or anything but I just feel cringed out at myself and my brain just goes “what on earth are you doing”. Same as in situations where there’s music or something, I see everyone just dancing or clapping along. I just can’t do it at all because I’m so self aware and embarrassed at myself and I make myself cringe. I’ve never danced or sung to myself. It’s just a constant thought of being self aware and cringed out.

I think I’m aware of my achievements and my close friends but it seems almost like a different type of self esteem issue. Does anyone else suffer from similar?

I know exactly what you mean, I feel exactly the same. I've accepted that it's just the way I am and and much happier.

I guess so it’s just so hard to break out of the habit! Just wish I could let loose - it’s not even about what other people think, more of what I think!