I’m so fed up and furious this evening! I’ve been struggling with anxiety and depression for a few months now and have an 11 month old baby.
I finally worked up the courage to book a doctors appointment - which was a nightmare in itself as it’s impossible to book into our local surgery. I finally got a telephone appointment with a nurse this morning.
I explained how I was feeling and she asked if I was breastfeeding. Once I said yes she said that meant I couldn’t take any drugs and the only option was to refer me to counselling. I politely said I’d been told by the breastfeeding network that there were antidepressants that were safe while breastfeeding, at which point she said she’d speak to the junior doctor and call me back.
She rang me back to tell me that almost all antidepressants aren’t safe while breastfeeding as it passes to the baby so I had two options
- Take Amitriptyline which may make the baby sleepy
- Stop breastfeeding and take another antidepressant!
I was pretty irritated but decided I would try the Amitriptyline. I have gone to take my first dose this evening and realised I have been prescribed 10mg. I have checked the NICE guidelines and that is the dosage they prescribe for back pain, while they advise at least 50mg for treating depression.
I am so furious. It took a lot for me to make the appointment and they made me feel like a selfish mother for wanting drugs and have essentially made it clear that if I want anything that will actually help me they expect me to stop breastfeeding.
Breastfeeding has been hugely protective for my mental health and has been one area of motherhood that I feel really good about. I have no intention of stopping and luckily know enough to query what she said initially or I’d have ended up stuck on an 18 month long waiting list for counselling! I do have counselling privately which I did explain to her, it’s not that I’m looking for a magic pill to fix everything, but I have taken antidepressants in the past and they were the only thing that was truly effective.
WIBU to complain? Should I book another appointment? Who would I even complain to?!