OK.... I'm angry right now.... Tomorrow (as always.... As every fucking day..... Will be seen as ok.... As this is normal.... As meh, that's life but i beed to vent) Been with DP 12 years (4380 days i say in jest!) ... He's always been lazy.... I guess I've always just thought i could do no better..... Used to be love (it really did) .... Until DC arrived 6 years ago when I realised just what a fucking doormat I am!..... I moved away from friends, family, job (1.5 hours by car so not too far) for this fucking dweeb, got mortgaged up and we are where we are.... I worked full time up until small person 6 years ago when i reduced to 30 hours a week, he has started working full time at the start of lockdown after being on reduced hours at a dead end company (not for want of trying to get him to find a proper job) ...i do literally EVERYTHING in the house (seriously.....) ......and I'm not the most motivated of people so find it fucking hard to try and keep on top of it all (i might add that he is 52....I'm 38 so an age gap - not that it matters).... I'm typing this on my notepad in sporadic bursts so it may not be sequential!..... Anway...Wednesday night I've never felt so ill..... Turns out I've got covid and to be fair it's knocked me for six (not woe is me.... I'm alive....I'm grateful.... Its all good).... But.... I've not been a proper fucking servant because I feel like a dog turd... And boy don't i fucking know it....well tonight I've finally made a stand..... I've done all the washing and when it finished i asked for him to help me sort out the tumble dry from the stuff that needs to dry naturally..... He moaned and moaned what i wanted.... (dragging him away from Instagram and TV) and when he saw his response was "oh fuck that shit, not dealing with that tonight, it can wait until tomorrow" (he needs his hi vis for work Monday and it can't be tumble dried..)..... So.... I did something that I've always threatened but never done..... I sorted all the washing but left all his clean stuff in a damp heap on the floor in our outhouse for him to fucking sort out tomorrow........... I even went into the living room when I'd finished and told him (head down into the phone) what I'd done.... He said OK whatever (ha!)........ He's just got up to go to the loo and noticed what I've done....he's absolutely furious.... Omg I dont even know why I'm writing this now..... I guess my AIBU is.....DO I NEED TO LEAVE THIS MAN?..... Yes... YANBU..... No.. YABU..... My next.... Is how? 😞 There's way too much history so pretty sure its going to be a drip feed so apologies in advance!!